I’ve drawn a diagram to go with this short story, here: https://www.50odd.co.uk/lifeshapes/.
Over the last few years.
Hidden away from everyone around me.
Even those closest to me.
I had been visualising my life as the wrong lifeshape.
I had been visualising my life as a Flat Diamond.
And that really isn’t good.
So I’ve changed it.
To a Drunk Isosceles.
And you know what?
I feel much, much better.
A Flat Diamond shaped life is not good.
It made me sad.
Because the left half of the Flat Diamond represents life’s acceleration.
The widest part of the Flat Diamond is called ‘The Peak’.
And the right hand half of the Flat Diamond is called.
You see; I started to believe that I’d peaked.
In about 2013.
At the age of about 45.
And as a consequence I’d labelled everything to the right of the widest part of the Flat Diamond.
Everything i was doing ‘now’.
I had to change something.
My perspective was all wrong.
This silly Flat Diamond lifeshape story that I was telling myself was hurting me.
First of all mentally.
And then it was hurting me in how I was performing and making decisions as well.
So I chose a different shape.
I chose the Drunk Isosceles.
So these days, an isosceles triangle lying down – drunk – on its side.
Is my brand new lifeshape.
And I LOVE it.
It basically means that I have chosen to go on learning, improving, growing, expanding and succeeding.
And just at the point that I peak.
When I am at maximum power.
When I am having an absolute fucking ball.
Riding higher than ever before.
(I’ve not sorted out ‘not dying’ yet.
I’ll keep you posted).
A Drunk Isosceles shaped life is a good life.
But I also learned a hard lesson by choosing a Flat Diamond shaped life.
I learned that, basically, the only way to be sure if you have peaked.
The only way to be 100% sure that you have moved completely through acceleration, learning, improving, growing, expanding and succeeding – on past Peak and into Decline.
Is if that is what you choose to believe.
In summary, because I chose to believe that I’d peaked.