In my past.
And – I am ashamed to say – sometimes in my present too.
I think that I have been more unkind, impatient, curt and disrespectful to those closer to me.
Than I have been with those that are further away.
Closer.
I am much less like this these days.
At least I think I am.
And I hope I am.
But back in the day it was almost as if.
If you were closer.
This gave me permission to be a bit of a dick.
Or dismissive.
Or, sometimes, just a bit rude.
OK.
It was never OK to be like that.
And even though I have seen this kind of thing in other people too.
And in other relationships too.
I still find it a very odd thing.
That I was a less nice person with.
And to.
Those that were closest to me.
